Blocking equipment returning from Iraq seems so counterproductive, and yet so pure and simple a motive and action... let's see if I can sort this out with a list:

The case for me sitting in front of military shipments heading back to Fort Lewis:

• I am drawn to do it by my heart.
• It's something I can do now, today, while there's still time, and I'll be able to say tomorrow and ever after "I sat in front of Military shipments that supported injustice!"
• I would feel like I was part of a larger group, with a common purpose, instead of like a lumpish cockroach in front of a computer.
• My parents would be proud of me. I think.
• I could meet other people of common cause, people in the wider Olympia peace and justice movements, people who feel strongly enough about this occupation that they're out there on the street.
• I could see what it feels like to stand firmly for my priciples even at some (smallish) risk to myself.
• Maybe, since there would be women there, I could meet some of them.
• It looked in some of the pictures like the protesters on fence duty got donuts. I'm slightly ashamed to say that this does motivate me. Really. I would like to request warm apple pastries for my pre-jail snack.
• My action might convince people to change their own minds after questioning why I would do such a thing over some trucks and working out the train of my logic and my passion.

The case against:

• It would be cold.
• Returning soldiers, who I have a lot of sympathy for, would probably mostly resent my actions. (although, perhaps they wouldn't care?)
• I would have to subdue my adrenaline and not fight or yell or be angry.
• I could get pepper-sprayed, hit with batons, suffer various indignities, and go to jail.
• I would have to plan for my possible booking and arrest, and have a support person, and I'm terrible at planning.
• My motives would have to be free of the various nuances of meaning and shades of belief that I usually like; I would be taking one side in a conflict, a conflict in which I would like to see less division and radicalization, not more.
• My actions could be misinterpreted, misrepresented by all sides, and I could hurt the opposition to the occupation more than I help it.
• I'm blocking equipment that's coming back home goddammit! WTF am I thinking!?
• Probably, my shyness and the nature of the situation would in fact prevent me from meeting women, despite my hopes above. Alas. Also, that motivation, while true, is a little creepy. Hmm. Sorry.
• My actions might make some people less likely to protest and work in other ways for an end to the occupation, because they don't want to be associated with "nutjobs" like me.

I tried to be honest here, almost a little too honest for my own comfort (donuts... meeting women... eeew..) but hey, somebody's got to say what's on their mind, right? I think I'll go down there now and read everyone's thoughts on this later... although, maybe I'll stay on the sidewalk. For now. Plum street, right?